A beast from a forgotten world

I'm work on an idea how I want to make the blog look unique though I got no idea if it's possible, and I know it's going to be hard.

It's really a rough Idea, and I'm not fully finished with said idea, soon as I finalize on I will try to make a more cohesive mock-up of it. Right not it's using a lot of random assets, hopefully I will be able to make a lot of it original, but that will take some time. So most likely I will try to make it and see what I can and can't do will using placeholders, then after that go around and put original ones in.

I'm messing around with the CSS of the blog style, so the blog will look messy for a bit while I learn how to use it.

I am very used to Tumblr and their coding system with HTML, so I'm not fully familiar with how to change thing within CSS.

Do wish I could transfer my rain and cursor trails here, but I got no idea how to code and especially from HTML to CSS. :/

Hope to make an entry about my life, and what has changed since last time, later today hopefully. :]

Life has changed alot, mainly for the better. ( ´∀｀ )b

So, I ended up deciding to move in with my grandparents mainly because when moving the stuff to storage with my mom I truly realized how shit the state of living I was in, mainly because I was just a stand in for my mother within the house. She really just didn't want to do anything her self without others help especially me and well It was too much, and I started to have break-downs.

That's when I started to stay with my grandparents for a bit because I couldn't handle it anymore. I went back to get my sibling and mine important papers, and she straight up said that I abandoned her, which was the last straw for me to just move in with my grandparents. With some more info, she told her sister that I didn't want my driver's license or a bank account and such, which really conformed that she lies to everyone about shit and that she just wants me with her, so I can do all her shit. She was talking about putting my name on the utilities bills if we got the place and I gave her a look like I'm not going sink down with you because you could get your life together when you had the chance and the goes for my dad to with is nagging and shit but does not help with what he wants me to do.

Like shit, do you too really wanted kids?!? Really starting to feel like you guys wanted puppets that did what you wanted and can just throw out when you were done with them. Well, I think this starts I got no parents' era.

To be honest, I'm quite lost right now with my life, I got no idea what I want to do in it. Art isn't something I can do as of right now, I'm burnt no idea for how long. Just waiting on what to do next with the whole moving thing because I decided quite late and most of my stuff is in storage, buried with all my mom's shit.

Oh, along with that still thinking when I should come out to at lest my grandparents about my transness but all this shit is too much at this moment.

Been offline more often, so this is not the only place I've been inactive, lol.

I have gotten two chances for a job, I'm more leaning on going with my grandpa's work. I am a kind of person that can't sit around and do the same thing every day. I can, but it's not fun. He does wiring for companies, so I would be going to different places each day along with being hands-on.

The thing is, I'm still accepting that selling and making art is not something I can't handle. I love doing art but making it for profit took all the love out of it. To be frank with you, I haven't done a serious piece in months.

Another good thing is when I get my driver's license, I still have a car waiting for me. No, it's not new more like old woman of a car, just something to drive back and forth in till I can make enough of my one to get a car (most likely not new either but more in shape).

All I really want is to not relie on my family too much, where I can stand on my own. It's just hard when no one is really helping to get to that point because I can't do every thing at the point I am in.

In some lighter news, my sibling has got me hooked with Stardew valley and I haven't stopped playing the past few days (I should be cleaning the house but don't tell anyone). I have been playing with mods with my Sable farm save. It's nice, though some of the mods are not working, but I think that's on my end with having so many on.




Here some just funny one just because.





Another thing I was doing till spring brake happen was uploading more photos to my InPrnt shop and making an old TV advert to kind of showing. I can show an WIP of it. Just haven't gone back to it after change my art as main thing to work on to a side work.

https://va.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_sagf2zYd1s1z5rj3m_720.mp4

Big thing rn is working on is disappointing my dad because he is not happy with anything I'm doing. He's just pissed I'm not doing what he wants me to do.

The big thing I have done since the last post, I was accepted in InPrnt and now have a shop, though at this moment I am still working on it.

Ok, now some smaller things, I have done some resin pieces and painted, also had joined a new minecraft server Origin Realms. [I'm still mixed if I like it or not]. Just been messing with PyDPainter and made a new pfp for my Tumblr. Bought four cute little bunny figures, which I later learn are quite expensive for some reason. I have started painting on them because I love them that much. Oh, I bought some tarot cards, why? Because I think they're neat. Do I believe in such thing? No, not really, though it depends on what day you ask...

Feeling better knowing that spring is so close now, after have a depressive episode for the end of January and the beginning of February. [It was not helped my dad is being an asshole and straight up being painful being around period. He really can't get enough shitting on my sibling for some odd reason.

Here are the images of such stuff✨

Was going to mess with layout coding but, I know jack shit even more so than HTML which I'm used to using.
All I want is to make it look as if it was rain, just like I have on my Tumblr. Which, I can't just transfer the code in here unless I'm seeing it wrong.