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Some nonhuman rambling idk
Apr. 21st, 2025 09:07 amLately, my shifting has been so bothersome. I'm trying to do classes but within me wants to run around outside, often sleep, and the most bothering is want to rip apart anyone who mildly annoys me.
On top of all this feeling my real body but only seeing this cursive human body, this disconnect is making feel like I'm going insane as all I feel is the discomfort of my body especially my tail not having a physical form. One day, I can hopefully can relieve some of this dysphoria.
It really causes a problem as the disconnect from humans becomes greater, and I lose a lot of empathy towards them. Mainly from what they did to me in the past and othering me in this life. I never catch a break with them, never. I have great disgust with them such vile, monstrous things, But I have to remind myself often that no all are like that. It is hard though as I keep getting reminded how much of this species does not care of those not even of their own species. I could go on more, but I would sound more and more like AM with my rambling of my deep hate for humanity.
They did after all play a big hand of my species extinction and I live it till I was the last of my herd. Though I wasn't the last, more of the beginning of our decline. We were praised by them, but at last that did not save us. Now our blood lies in the domesticated, those that will never feel the full life that we once had. While I'm a mockery of what I hated, what didn't want to be no more, but yet this universe knows something I don't, and I'm punished for what I have knowledge of.
Okay, I'm done with this rambling for now. I'm going to try to make a habit to post more here. Need to make an Aurochs icon here it is my original form after all just only distorted by time and hatred (icon rn).
On top of all this feeling my real body but only seeing this cursive human body, this disconnect is making feel like I'm going insane as all I feel is the discomfort of my body especially my tail not having a physical form. One day, I can hopefully can relieve some of this dysphoria.
It really causes a problem as the disconnect from humans becomes greater, and I lose a lot of empathy towards them. Mainly from what they did to me in the past and othering me in this life. I never catch a break with them, never. I have great disgust with them such vile, monstrous things, But I have to remind myself often that no all are like that. It is hard though as I keep getting reminded how much of this species does not care of those not even of their own species. I could go on more, but I would sound more and more like AM with my rambling of my deep hate for humanity.
They did after all play a big hand of my species extinction and I live it till I was the last of my herd. Though I wasn't the last, more of the beginning of our decline. We were praised by them, but at last that did not save us. Now our blood lies in the domesticated, those that will never feel the full life that we once had. While I'm a mockery of what I hated, what didn't want to be no more, but yet this universe knows something I don't, and I'm punished for what I have knowledge of.
Okay, I'm done with this rambling for now. I'm going to try to make a habit to post more here. Need to make an Aurochs icon here it is my original form after all just only distorted by time and hatred (icon rn).
